A Decision is Made

16 Nov
2007

I spent 7 years in California and each day I hated it. I enjoyed going to college here and receiving a stellar eduction but I was always miserable. I blamed everything around me. I stayed an extra two years because I was committed to someone and did not put myself ahead. I blamed him. I blamed wanting to live the Californian lifestyle.

No more. I am going to travel Europe and settle down there. If luck is on my side, then it will be Norway, Denmark, Sweden, or Iceland. Sweden and Iceland being my favorite choices.

I am no longer going to live my life for someone else or for something else. I am no longer going to complain about being here, I am going to up and leave.

Some people think I am completely nuts for wanting to leave the United States. Maybe so. Maybe it is nuts after 3 months of contemplating about Nordic, I am going to move. It will freak out people around me that I may be moving for the wrong reasons, but I know my reasons, I do not need others’ negativity.

Some of you are supporting me through this very big transition. I appreciate it. I love you all for that. My concept of ‘home’ has been twisted over the past 5 years and those of you in the US who have been my support structure, I thank.

And so it goes, the phoenix rises from the ashes and will fly away.

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8 Responses to A Decision is Made

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Sapphire

November 16th, 2007 at 07:07

Thank you! Where’s the welcome center?

I think people in general forgot or fail to chase their dreams and then spend part of their life wondering about the what if’s and maybe’s…

If only more people had to courage to do what they really want in life.

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mara

November 16th, 2007 at 06:01

Sweden sounds lovely., and you are right about putting yourself first…..
I think more and more women are waking up to the ‘sisterhood’ and realizing their common dreams and strengths ……if you want please pop in and say hi…visit the welcome center …you will be welcome…..your cousin in sweden might enjoy it too… :) mara

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Simmi

November 17th, 2007 at 01:10

Til hamingju! I think you’ve made a wonderful choice. That you’re doing it for all the right reasons and at exactly the right time. Of course this is going to be an adventure, and adventures are full of difficulties, quests and those damn pesky dragons, goblins and assorted other monsters that we have to keep fighting. So Sweden is not a bad choice for a destination. It has its fair share of idiots, but then again that’s true of most places:-) You may run into quite a bit of preconceived ideas about immigrants, but that will be true anywhere you’ll go anyway – just tell them that you’re from Iceland or Finland if they give you a hard time:-) There are a few of films you should watch before you go – Fucking Amal or Show Me Love, Tillsammans or Together and Mitt liv som hund or My Live As A Dog – or just watch them whenever, they are all Swedish, all favorites and they happen to be great movies so well worth watching no matter what:-)

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Simmi

November 17th, 2007 at 01:12

Oh, btw. because women got mentioned here in a previous comment I thought I’d share this link – http://www.audur.com/

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Sapphire

November 17th, 2007 at 03:36

I’m really excited and freaked out at the same time. But yes, the fun is the adventure. I will take the Narsil and the Palantír and battle the trolls, dragons, monsters, and maybe even Loki (when he does stupid things).

And the idiots. :)

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HairySwede

November 19th, 2007 at 12:40

WOOOOO!!!!

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Sapphire

November 20th, 2007 at 00:46

@HairySwede- Yayyy!!!

@mara- thanks for the link!

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œ Crux'

November 21st, 2007 at 11:19

Welcome to Sweden!

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