California is a great state but I have never been happy living here. I moved here seven years to begin college and somehow stuck around because the Bay Area was “the place to be.” But, it is not the place for me. For the past few months I have been toying with the idea of relocating back to the east coast…I came very close, nearly moved my stuff and left in September. I didn’t move, for the best I suppose.
Now I am still in California and feeling truly dazed and confused by this state. California may be the “greatest place to live” but I hate it and I do not see why I have to conform to the Cali is great philosophy. I am getting tired of defending my distaste of this area; it is after all my life and I have every right to seek my own pursuit of happiness in the best way I see fit.
What is that pursuit of happiness? Job? Career? Money? Savings? Love? Partner? Life? Tranquility? Fun? I still do not know but I am certain I will not find it in California. The time is right for me to pack up and move on and start a new chapter in my life.
I have to come to the point in my life where I am willing to risk everything I know in order to find something greater. And there it is, I should go back to Europe and live out the European dream that I have desperately missed. I may not have a job or a school to attend at this moment, but everything in me says going to Europe is the right thing to do. For me. And that is all that matters.
I have decided to ponder until All Hallows Eve (i.e. Halloween) on where/when/how/what of a possible move. At that point, I will make my decision and buy a ticket and not turn back.
Sometimes we have to let go of everything we are familiar with to find something we were always looking for.
Only you can make your decisions, and if you feel this is right for you then all the luck in the world to you.
If you’re not happy in California then move. Europe is pretty sweet, and if you’re not happy when you get there… move again. No matter what you can always bail until you figure things out.
I made a run in the US for a couple of years, it answered a lot of questions for me. If you feel out of place, find a place where you wanna be.No matter how it goes,in the end what matters is that you’ll have another experience under your belt.Which is the path to growth as a person and with that maybe you’ll be able to define what happiness is to you.
Like hairy said, no matter what you can always bail out. Good luck!
That’s good advice. I should listen to the non-Californians instead of those Cali obsessed folks. :)
Smiles its nice to find this journal I am very nervous myself on moving very soon